About Me:

Hi! My name is Emma, and I am a transfeminine non-binary person! I specifically identify as transfeminine because I identify as a non-binary gender that just so happens to frequently look a lot like what people think of as female. I specifically place myself outside of the gender binary because I believe that it is a socially constructed system of power disparities that is most frequently used as a means to oppress anyone who doesn’t conform, or doesn’t fit the requirements for the most privileged spots. My thoughts, ideas, and beliefs about the nature of gender are highly influenced by queer theory, and my favorite gender outlaw, Kate Bornstein. I consider myself a gender outlaw just like they do. I highly suggest anyone unfamiliar with their writing to check it out (My Gender Workbook is a great place to start). I do, however, choose to use typical female she/her pronouns.

I was born in November of 1985 and was assigned male at birth. My parents named me after my father (and his father) by deciding to call me Robert and raised me as their son. Around the age of 8 or 9 years old,  I started to notice that something about me didn’t feel right, but I wasn’t sure what it was. I, like so many others, kept these feelings and their various manifestations a secret and never really told anyone how I felt. Although it took me until my twenties to realize that I was transgender, I always had a feeling that there was “something wrong with me” and felt like I should have been born a girl instead of a boy. I even jokingly told my friends that I was a lesbian trapped in a man’s body. It wasn’t until right before my 29th birthday that everything changed. I’d been fighting the knowledge of my transgender nature for several years (I realized I was probably transgender around the age of 24) and had fallen into a deep and pervasive depression, until one night in October of 2014, I had a dream that I was a female (lady-bits and all). The emotions that accompanied that dream were far too powerful to deny any longer and so, after a lot of thought, I made the decision to transition genders, originally from male to female (see http://transadvent.blogspot.com/2014/10/and-you-will-know-truth-and-that-truth.html )

Since that time I have chosen a new name, Emma, which means whole or universal, and have discovered that in all actuality, I am not simply a MtF transsexual. I am, in fact, a combined or twin-spirit, one male and one female. There are two of us inhabiting this body, so one could truly refer to me as an us or we, although we do prefer to be referred to in the singular for the sake of simplicity. We chose the name Emma because it represented our convergence that made us become whole again (further clarification can be found here http://transadvent.blogspot.com/2015/06/6-12-2015-entry-my-first-week-working.html )

I live my life full time now as Emma and am loving every minute of it! I choose to live openly as non-binary and transfeminine because I believe visibility is our greatest weapon against the systemic and stratified gender binary system that has taken hold of western society. I deliberately choose to transgress cis-normative gender “rules” because I, like so many queer theorist before me, don’t believe there is any such thing as “normal” when it comes to individual identity, expression or sexuality. The world is far too complex, intricate, interconnected, and undiscovered for any one person or group to rightfully claim authority over what is and what isn’t “real” with regards to human expression or ability.

I've been blogging for a few years, although this blog has only existed since October 2014. I am also an author of two published science fiction novels entitled Chariots of Heaven, and The Splitting of Heaven (see my fiction page for links). I currently work as a paralegal in intellectual property (patents) but am pursuing a master's degree in Marriage and Family therapy. I live in Minnesota with my two cats. I spend most of my time either writing, blogging, or reading.

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