Thursday, July 30, 2015

7-30-2015 Entry: Just a Quick Check In

This week has been very busy for me and I haven’t had much of a chance to write or work on any blogs, but I don’t want anyone to think I’ve died because I’m not posting every day. You don’t have to hide it, I know you were worried I was laying in ditch somewhere, wearing a mini-skirt, covered with glitter and rocking a shit-eating grin on my face from all the trouble I had caused the night before! ;)


No, I’m writing because there was a song that really resonated with me just now and I wanted to share it here. I know the band is totally Christian and are probably talking about God (or Jesus, cuz that’s what Christian bands do) but I’m requisitioning the song to refer to my struggle with my gender. Envision, if you will, that the below lyrics are being said from Robert to Emma around the time of coming out and it will all make sense. Also, here is the song if you want to listen to it:


Yesterday I heard Your voice
Whispering through all the noise
I pretended I couldn't hear You
But You kept on pursuing me
And You began to move in me
And I just couldn't hide any more
I won't fight You

Go ahead!
Take what You want to
Take what You need to
Don't let me hold You back
Go ahead!
Do what You have to
Cuz I want to know You
Don't let me hold You back

I'll wear my heart out on my sleeve
If it brings You close to me
Help me leave the life I knew before You
Come inside, erase the shame
Call me by different name
I won't be the same anymore
God, I trust You

God, I was so wrong
To stay away so long
Oh, how I need You!”


Anyways, thanks for checking in. I’ll write again soon. **Muah**



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